I tried to never look back after '96.
I do reminisce with old Oilers fans about the way things were, but it was a different time and different era.
I allowed myself to get a little nostalgic when Bum passed away. Part of it is just the fun memories of my childhood and the innocence of being a young fan. I never got wrapped up in any of the front office stuff and was all about Luv Ya Blue, Earl, Bum, Oiler Cannonball, that goofy fight song, and visits to the Astrodome (always a highlight and huge event as a kid).
A large part of that kid fan innocence died in January 1993. I was a koolaid drinking fool. This was before the internet and before the media over-saturation. You got news from newspapers and some of the sports talk shows on news radio (remember the Three Amigos with Ed Fowler and Kenny Hand?). Man, I was in my front yard celebrating with a buddy when the Oilers were 28-3 over the Bills that January day. It took me two weeks to come out of the depressing funk, and while the next season was a blast and I watched every moment, something was missing. Optimistic belief, I guess, replaced by little seeds of cynicism.
When Bud started his usual shenanigans to milk the city for a stadium, I was like the rest of the Oilers fan collective. Shut up, Bud, you still have tens of millions to pay off for the recent Astrodome renovation. I don't think anyone really took his threats seriously...until it was too late.
Even then, it took the absence of football for several years for Houston football fans to realize what we lost.
It's coming up on 20 years since the Oilers left. I made peace with it a long time ago and moved on. My kids still bring me Oilers merchandise and I sometimes find something in storage or warehouse. I clean it up and give it to my favorite Oilers memorabilia curator. Herv's Oiler museum is going to be epic!
I've got to be honest, though. I'm a Texans fan for life (well, as long as they stay in Houston). But there is something missing that will never be there, and that is the lifelong thread of being a fan of a team because your folks were fans and passed it down. My kids will have the attachment with the Texans, but for me, it will always be split between what was then and what is now. There is no connecting the two, no bridge to make it whole. The Houston Oilers are dead, but the memories remain. It's nice to share with others that have the memories, but the older we get, the more they sort of fade and we slowly become old men talking about the good ol' days, just like hearing my grandfather talk about the Brooklyn Dodgers.
God I will NEVER forget the reaction of ESPN's crew when Buddy went after Gilbride. Circus indeed.
NFL Films is devoting an episode of "A Football Life" to the '93 Oilers. I believe it will air in the next few weeks. I look forward to it.
