A well written, heartfelt article on being away from the game by the surprising Seth Payne.
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The Payne Train: Missing football
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I've spent the last five days at the Houston Texans' training camp after five years away from the NFL. I'm writing for Shutdown Corner and I'm on the radio in Houston, so I'm out there as a member of the media, taking notes. Some things have jumped out at me, several of which are more personal than I expected.
First, I wasn't prepared for the emotional response I had the first time I watched a 9-on-7 drill. In the past five years I had convinced myself that I didn't really miss football that much, that it didn't define me as a person. I never wanted to become the clichéd ex-jock, living in the past and boring everybody at the bar with stories about my glory days. Standing there, watching those guys hit each other in a very physical drill that was a staple of my life for so many years, and I realized how much I still miss all of it. I miss the challenge, the misery, the victories and the losses.
I miss knowing myself so well. I miss knowing that my legs will keep churning long after fatigue has robbed me of the ability to feel them. That I can still run fast when it feels like I'm in deep sand. That no matter how long a drive or a wind sprint seems, it will all be over soon.
I miss being around defensive backs...